Blog stalking and not afraid to admit it

The title of my post today is the honest truth of where I have been hiding the past week.  I can't believe it's been a week since my last post!!! I'm sorry for being so astray.  I can't say that I haven't had time because I have...I've just been busy blog stalking.  I have found one blog that I love to read.  This particular woman is an amazing woman of God.  I have read almost all of her blogs in the past week or so, and every time I am done reading them I think how much I would like to be like her.  Not in a jealous "I want her clothes, her car, etc..." kind of way, but "I want to be seen as a woman of God" kind of way.  Obviously I am a Christian and I always try to do and say the right things, but I am human.  I sin a lot, say things that I know weren't nice, think bad thoughts when I know I shouldn't, etc.  This year my biggest "resolution" oh I hate that word because I don't like New Years, but my new promise was to become closer to God and strong in my faith.  I go through days when I feel down, sad, wanting more, wishing for a vision for my life and when I stop to think about these things, it is as if God is trying to get my attention.  I imagine God listening to my thoughts and needs.  He's in heaven trying to get me to see what's missing-HIM. Don't get me completely wrong because I do pray and try to focus on his word, but I have continued to fail so far.  

One thing I have been doing is listening to weekly messages from Church of the Highlands.  My sweet friend who I get the pleasure to work with and be my friend is constantly encouraging me, praying for me, listening to me, etc. is like my cheerleader.  She is the one who introduced me to Pastor Chris, and it has the been one of the best gifts I have ever been given.  Every time I listen to his word I walk away feeling full of faith.  I receive such a spiritual lift that is almost indescribable.  This month he has been talking about moving "From Here to There."  The funny part about this series is that this is EXACTLY what my husband and I need at this time in my life.  Another example of how I know God is trying to point things out to me is through Pastor Chris' messages.  Every week there is something heavy on my heart, and so far it has been exactly what Church of the Highlands is discussing.  The verse of the series is "Where there is no vision, the people perish." Wow is all I can say.  It is so true...I have been wanting certain things in my life and internalizing certain things, but I haven't stop to think about my vision or our vision as a young, married couple.  Where do I need to be to be a great, spiritual wife? What do I need to do at my job to make things happen for the better?  What should Hunter and I focus on when it comes to finances, especially in the economic crisis?  So many questions, but I have faith that through God and developing a closer relationship with him, I will be able to answer these questions.  I pray that everyone reading this will try to develop a closer relationship to God because I don't think you can ever get too close to him ;-)

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